I Guess It's For Real...

...no turning back now. Although I may have thought about for a few seconds in the beginning. Or maybe a few minutes. Like, yesterday. And the verdict is in...we'll keep it!

Look at the camera, please Sweetie!

As you might know, the first trimester of a pregnancy is the most hormonally hormone laden months of a woman's life. The raging hormones in combination with almost-three-year-old children cause both interesting and horrifying actions, thoughts, moods and verbal (and/or written) diarrhea. The following excerpt is an example of what one might see written on a hormonally hormonal pregnant woman's blogs after days of irritability and self loathing...mind you, she will undoubtedly be rainbows-and-butterflies-wonderful tomorrow as the cycle of hormonal abuse of pregnancy wanes.

We're having Baby Blachly #2! But in a way YOU'RE having a baby too; because it takes a village. And I am going to need a little more help than normal. I can feel it. That line about "God never gives you more than you can handle", not buying it sister. I'm a little scared...a lot anxious...a good amount excited...but mostly I'm already tired. I'm too much of a sissy for this parenting business. Someone just give me the manual already!

So if anyone wants to throw me a shower, can you make it a Pity Party instead? That's more my speed these days.

Joseph won't quit acting like a wild child and we have ANOTHER one of these on the way?

...bedtime is a nightmare, had to leave the room to breathe before something or someone went out the window...
...he wants daddy to change his diaper but daddy is mowing the lawn right now, can't mommy just do it already?! omg he is writhing on the floor naked screaming...
...he wanted me to kick that ball not this ball, ok let me kick that ball then, that's not right either, omg he is writhing on the lawn screaming...
...he wanted to put the ice in Daddy's travel mug of coffee, oops sorry, maybe next time, Daddy really needs to go, please stop crying, ok then let's walk Daddy out, omg he is writhing on the driveway screaming, at 7:00 in the morning, good morning neighborhood...
...shall I go on?!

Stop that! Just look at me and smile!

Like I said before, these are all things that could possibly be happening to a hormonally hormonal pregnant lady. These could be the things that an already irritable mom has to deal with and at the same time try to be happy and positive about the new little bundle of joy that is coming to join the family. She might make mental list like the one below:

• buck up and suck it up already! aren't moms supposed to be really good at that?
  
• finish chapter in Momology on "turning the frown upside down"
• learn from your very own flesh and blood first child on the amazing personality trait of resiliency
• leave the guilt behind...you can't take back that you just yelled at him but you can NOT yell at him tomorrow
• I thought "laid back" and "go with the flow" best described me about two years ago. Goal: let that describe me again!
  
• My favorite: keep your expectations low in the first place and you won't be disappointed, right?
• would you rather go back to working the reception desk downtown?! That'll shut you up.

Aghh! Joseph! Hold the sonogram picture AND smile. Please!

So maybe the first trimester was a little hard on me. I think I can see the light at the end of the tunnel though. And a beautiful rainbow. With a little baby bundled in a sweet soft little blanket cooing up at me. I think the problem is that I'm not used to being in such a learning state of life. So I need to readjust to that and get ready for round two at the same time!

JOSEPH! If you hold it up, look at the CAMERA and smile at the same time I'll give you some m&ms!!!

Now if one were a wonderfully balanced, loving, and non-hormonal type of gal (and I AM feeling the love, light and happiness as we speak) then I think the following would be what you might possibly see on her blog, for instance.

Josh, Joseph and I are so excited to be having another baby!! I wanted a baby so badly that only getting pregnant yesterday would do. When the pregnancy test stripe popped up my head kinda spun for a moment! It was very surreal. I sent Joseph in to tell Josh he was a big brother and we all smiled and hugged and it was wonderful!

Unlike with Joseph, we decided to wait until after our first doctor's appointment to tell close friend's and family we were pregnant. I didn't announce it to the general public (i.e. FaceBook/Blog) until now...the end of my first trimester. On Friday I'll be 13 weeks. The appt was long but easy and went fine. I got my first sono which showed the yoke sack and not much else but it was still so sweet!

Yes! Geez, thank you, son!

So I got out my pregnancy journal from Joseph and have been reading/writing along with the info and entries from last time. I've been SO sick and tired and it's been really trying but it's getting better with each week. The other day I caught myself doing a whole mess of laundry and cleaning and it clicked that I wasn't exhausted and laid up on the couch!

I have found myself to be a little more neurotic this time around. Like over thinking things, over analyzing, making a lot of drama, creating crazy blog posts...that sort of thing. Hopefully it won't last much longer and the 2nd and 3rd trimesters will be a little better!

Now off to pick out some names! For me, that's almost as hard as the child rearing.